M.E and running – a balancing act

Aug 01, 13 M.E and running – a balancing act

I’ve not run for almost two weeks now, I’m not sure there’s really a good reason for it, other than I feel lousy. I’m trying to decide if this is just apathy, or if it’s the bloody M.E telling me to take it easy.

I’ve had M.E for over twenty years now, I’m very lucky that most of the time when it rears its ugly head it just affects me with severe tiredness and brings my mood down, but in the early days I’ve never know pain like it. I was never bedridden with it but I did have six months off work, waiting on a diagnosis and treatment. Interesting that once I knew what it was I found a way of dealing with it and getting back to work.

I had a bad spell at the end of last year, I was feeling really down but the best the Doctor could do was tell me to find a balance between rest and exercise. In the end I gave myself a good kick up the backside and just got on with it. Perhaps marathon training was a bit more than the Doctor had meant but it opened my eyes.

When I run regularly I don’t get ill anywhere near as often or as severely as when I don’t run!

Unlike most people when I get a virus I don’t shake it off, it lasts for weeks or months, draining me. I’ve noticed this year that the couple of times I had a break from running I got ill.

June was a particularly stressful month for me work wise and it buggered up my running routine, July wasn’t much better and now we have school holidays. I guess I’m a creature of habit, if my running routine is messed up then I don’t like it, and I don’t seem to have the energy to pull it back.

Step one of course is me sitting down and realising this. Step two is me deciding to do something about it. I’m between one and two right now.

I’ve been added to a really good running group on Facebook this past few weeks. They’re friendly, they’re a varied bunch, some beginners, some marathon runners, some ultra runners, and even people who organise marathons.

This constant reminder on my timeline is good for me, it’s chipping away at the lethargy, it’s slowly bringing back the want. Mind you people complaining their monthly mileage is down when their monthly mileage was more than I did in the whole of 2012 can be quite daunting! That said several of them have just done Thunder Run and made it sound so much fun I’m seriously tempted for next year. This is what I mean about extremes.

But the group is well balanced, it therefore works really well, and that’s what I need to find. My balance.

I’m starting to question now whether I could run, should run, or whether I’m just letting the M.E make me lazy and feel sorry for myself, it’s very good at that, and I think I may have just given in too early this time. I’m not going to make promises I can’t or won’t keep, instead I’ll say I’ll try. I will try to get out there and run this weekend, it might not even be a run, it might be a run/walk but right now anything is better than nothing.

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